My parents have officially arrived in Florida. My dad's select baseball team is in the World Series!! I wish I was there, but I know that they will do just fine without me! I hope my parents find some time to have some fun while they are in Florida, and I hope that the Marauder's go all the way!
On a brighter note, I actually slept last night! Praise God! I haven't mentioned it yet, but I haven't been sleeping for about the last week. I lay in bed and cannot fall asleep for anything. I lie awake, honestly a little miserable. On Sunday night, I didn't go to sleep at all. I stayed awake, prayed and read my Bible in hopes that would help else the fear. I was praying and asking God what was going on, and why all of a sudden am I so scared? I am aware that there was an escape last week, and they still haven't caught him; but that isn't that scary to me. Even when I would fall asleep, I have been waking up with terrible nightmares. I wake up just repeating Jesus over and over again. Satan is definitely attacking.
The more I prayed, and the more I asked God why I was so fearful all of a sudden my answer became a little clear. I am surrounded by stories of crime all week. I hear about robberies, rapes, and even murders, and it has started taking a tole on me. I know that may sound a little weird, but I was over thinking all of those situations. I was thinking-- what if it was me? It scares me to the core.
Now that I had found the root of my fear- how do I get rid of it?
Psalms 37:5 says
Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him,
and He shall bring it to pass.
With all of my fear and anxiety building up inside- I just couldn't handle it anymore to the point of not sleeping for about a week. So not only is it taking a toll on my emotions but now my physical being. I was doing my devotional book that I do in the mornings yesterday, and I came across this-- and it hit right home for me.
"You cannot hoard things for a rainy day if you are truly
trusting in Christ. Jesus said, "Let not your heart
be troubled..." (John 14:1). God will not keep your heart
from being troubled. It is a command- "Let not...."
To do it, continually pick yourself up,even if you fall one
hundred ties a day, until you get into the habit of putting
God first and planning with Him in mind"
I know that it was about planning, but I can definitely apply it to my fear. Thank you Lord for overcoming this world. You are bigger than my fear, you are bigger than my pain, and love me enough to die for me. I am so thankful that you never leave me alone when I need you and even when I feel like I don't. Thank you for being faithful when I am faithless.
Pray this week that I can cling to these promises. Pray that my supervisor and her husband make it back safely from Ireland this week. Also we have an execution on Thursday. Pray for that man, and the family. Pray that if he has not come to know the Lord, that he is given the opportunity to do so. Pray also for his family. Remember that they did nothing. They are just experiencing a loss, that, for them, comes along with a lot of pain and anger at 'the system'.
Miss you guys!!
Pray this week that I can cling to these promises. Pray that my supervisor and her husband make it back safely from Ireland this week. Also we have an execution on Thursday. Pray for that man, and the family. Pray that if he has not come to know the Lord, that he is given the opportunity to do so. Pray also for his family. Remember that they did nothing. They are just experiencing a loss, that, for them, comes along with a lot of pain and anger at 'the system'.
Miss you guys!!
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